Impatiently waiting

Here I stand, 

The end in sight, 

The pace has slowed,

Blessed with a rushing wave of excitement,

Only to see that the river's filled with eels, 

Jagged stones and strong tides.

The wait to go home,

Seems so long and painful,

I think of you all,

Every day,

How you blessed me,

And showed me a glimpse,

Of God's family.

I long to see them again,

But I dread to think,

What will happen,

If this time it's harder to let go,

My heart may be so torn,

That only His hands,

Can even begin to piece it together.

This longing can't be for nothing,

To see His children smile,

To journey with His family,

Through life's joys and frustration,

His plans are bigger,

His wisdom stretches further,

I must leave it in His care.

But till then,

I will wait,

Impatiently, for clarity,

And repeatedly surrender the tender,

Desperately hopeful part of my heart,

Into His arms each day,

For He alone knows and is in control...