Won't you come and fill this heart

It's that time of year again, a time of crazy transition... And well time I blogged

I'm half a semester away from finishing my uni degree as a teacher, I finish my nannying job tomorrow, move house the day after, my current flatmates and beautiful friends head off on a three month adventure while I'm on camp that starts a day after moving house and then I come back to a giant assignment due for uni.

Usually this kind of upheaval would send me stressing weeks if not months ahead of time. This time it hasn't. This time it's only hit me now... A few days before it's all going to happen. 

I think the difference is this. In my head, this is good change- even though some of it still feels over whelming... Sorry for the potential cheesiness that follows =)

As I finish my undergrad I can now go onto (hopefully- application permitting) study to be a special education teacher, something which on all of my pracs I have grown to love and can't wait to learn and be equipped through this course.

Finishing my nannying job will give me space to casual teach (If my number comes through soon) and that will be an amazing chance to get my experience up =) I'll miss the kids I nanny, but I'm sure I'll see them again one day.

I'm moving out of an amazing flat and community which has been a great opportunity and has really made me happy. But going back to study means it makes more sense for me to move back with my parents for a while- they're pretty cool though =)

As my flatmates and friends head off on an adventure- I've loved living with them these passed few months!! But I'm so excited they have this chance to get away for a few months together to refresh and recharge =) I'll miss them all the same- but I know they'll be back eventually =)

I've been craving another kids camp for a while and haven't been able to do one because of prac teaching for a few years. Life is rarely simple and restful before the start of camp. I know I can rely on God, He will give me strength, wisdom and energy to share His love with the kids next week and I can't wait.

As for my giant assignment?? I'm not sure how to put a good spin on that... It will be a bit of a mission to finish... But the topic is exciting and unlike some tasks... The time I spend on this one is time well spent.

Lyrics to finish =)

- You
" You've wisdom beyond comprehension,
More love than this world brings
Arms that receive me wide open,
I offer my heart up to You...

....

Down on my knees I am falling,
I've strength that's long washed away,
I have no choice but surrender,
Won't you come and fill my heart"

Bless ya!

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