When you can't have both...

I've finished my teaching degree! I'm relieved, exhausted and still kind of in shock that I've actually finished... 6 years of tertiary study. I haven't loved every minute of it, but there have been moments that things I have read have made me really passionate. About building relationships with kids, families and supporting them in anyway I can.... But I'm not really sure I want to be a full time teacher in a school. I love supporting kids and helping them learn, think and grow. I want to share with them about how amazing living life with Jesus can be.
I've been looking at applying for jobs as a children's pastor and if they go through, this would mean moving away from the two churches I currently go to and starting a life at a new one.

Last night I prayed that God would give me peace about a potential position while I applied if this was from Him (I've been feeling pretty anxious lately). When I went to apply for the job this morning, I had peace and began to feel excited about the potential of being involved in ministry again and being able to give the majority of my time and brain to this position and not having to split it between a gazillion different spaces. It takes time and energy to trust. But I am thankful I have such a big God to trust in. 

While this space is hard for me... I'll continue to pray and trust that God will give me peace and that He will ensure I have opportunities to grow in my faith and walk with Him!


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