Priorities

Country to country, city to city, house to house, people to people... You get the drift I move a lot. One of the things I love about moving is the fact that I have a fresh start everywhere I go...

I've recently arrived in Australia from Kenya, supposedly home- my family, my bed and my things are here and there are people who I think are people I went to primary school with, but 7 years really do change a person- particularly when those are the teenage years.

In a sense, I'm home...I'm back at the first church I was ever a part of, some new people and some old ones... and I think its brilliant!

These people are welcoming, they are passionate and they are genuine and I love it.

For the last couple of weeks I have felt God challenging me. Once again about my priorities... I'm back in first year uni. A conjoint degree in psychology and teaching... New subjects, new learning and the same old temptation to let my need for unnecessarily good grades consume my life.

For a few weeks I didn't go to homegroup... I talking about God and how incredible he is... With a teeth grinding linguistics paper.

This week I went back. I had an essay due the next morning and it was far from finished but God challenged me to go to homegroup. I mentioned to someone that my assignment was going to hate me to which their reply was "Oh well your assignments aren't real people..."

A simple comment but one that really hit home.
After years of craving depth from friendships which for many reasons- often due to moving- it has been a struggle to maintain, I finally have the opportunity to develop some genuine, real friendships and I am putting an assignments for a paper I actually care very little about ahead of this beautiful chance?

It doesn''t take a genius to figure out what is wrong with this picture.

Its been a while since I have genuinely connected with God in worship... Often I'll wonder about who is watching- even though I know it doesn't really matter. I'll worry about how much space I've got-even though I could always move... Or I'll simply get distracted...

Tonight- was different. The eyes may still have been on me- but I didn't care... There were people next to me... But that didn't matter... I could have been distracted... But I wasn't.

For a blessed moment I didn't care how weird or random I looked... I was simply worshipping He who saved me, accepted me for who I am and yet absurdly still loves me...

Epic much?

"You set my feet to dancing,
You set my heart on fire,
In the presence of 1000 kings,
You are my one desire,
I stand before you now,
With trembling hands lifted high...
Be glorified."




Comments

  1. Jocelyn3 June 2012 at 20:02

    aww... i love your blog! haha. I know what you mean when you say uni life has been taking over. I feel the same way, specifically because i'm working heaps now as well. I have not gone to my homegroup for the past 2 months i reckon. I don't know... i'm kind of scared to go back. I'm scared that my friends will see... i kind of hate showing people that i'm not okay... because emotions are pretty hard hitting. But maybe i will go... maybe God has greater plans for me than i have for myself. Maybe university is not the be all or end all. Maybe i'm taking up this space of yours too much! haha. p.s. Your blog is a breath of fresh air. Now i know that your struggles are mine too and if God can heal you... He can heal me too! Thanks Becks!

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